Pregnancy Update: 25 Weeks

How far along: 25 Weeks, about 15 to go (This is the first time I've realized that I only have 15 weeks left. At the moment, that doesn't sound like enough).

Showing: Ha! I feel like a whale.

Weight Gain: I think about 12 pounds. Like I said in the last post, I think my weight gain is picking up. I've been super hungry (and I was on vacation for a week since the last post, and I ate terribly) lately. I have an appointment on Saturday, so I'll see for sure then. I still feel pretty good about where I am with weight gain though, considering I was overweight to begin with.

Maternity Clothes: Yes, all my pants/shorts are maternity, though I have started wearing some of Steve's gym shorts around the house. They are so comfy! I said last time that I've been wearing mostly Target v-neck t-shirts that aren't maternity, but I think I'm going to need to buy some more actually maternity shirts.

Food I'm Eating/Craving: Bruschetta (I've made a big bowl for myself about five times in the past two weeks), Thai food, fruit, sorbet, French fries, and at moments tacos and burgers.

Things that Make me Sick: My morning sickness is back. Not to the extent it was before, but I've thrown up about once a week for the past three weeks, and I keep putting off breakfast until it passes. If I cough or bend over for too long, it gets me started. Sometimes I can breath through the nausea, but other times, I just can't stop it. 

Other symptoms: Difficulty sleeping (I bought a huge body pillow to help with this), major mood swings, super hungry, sciatic pain, general hip pain in my right hip especially after sitting or vacuuming, mild restless leg syndrome, easily short of breath, HOT ALL THE TIME, morning headaches (I think this is mainly from not being able to sleep comfortably). All of this is minor though. No major issues.

Pregnancy Brain: Um, I think I checked three different times to be sure I turned the oven off the other day, and each time realized I had already checked.

Miss anything? Wine, sleeping on my stomach, being even-keeled emotionally, and  (TMI for most of you, but in the interest of full disclosure for those reading this for a purpose) my sex drive. 

Best moment: A few days ago, I could feel Baby Boy's back pressed against my belly and made Steve feel it. He hasn't been super interested in feeling the baby move himself, but his eyes lit up when he realized the hard spot on my tummy was the baby. That was really cool for me. His comment? "Don't poke too hard; it might be his eye." My husband has a joke for everything. I really love being able to feel where baby boy is sometimes now. It makes me feel like I'm touching him, not just my huge belly.

Movement:  He's definitely moving a lot. Sometimes it makes my whole belly shake and other times it's almost like he's kicking toward the inside of my not the outside.

Gender: It's a boy! Cai Alexander.

Happy or moody most of the time?: I'm really struggling with mood swings. I HATE it. I feel like a different person. Even knowing that it's because of hormones and that I'm overreacting doesn't make it any less real or easier to handle. Usually it's about things that would upset me normally, but that I would be able to move on from quickly; instead I just lose it and either get really angry or cry for hours. It ruins my whole day. People crack jokes about pregnancy mood swings, but there is nothing funny about not feeling like you can control yourself.

It doesn't help that our life is kind of up in the air right now. Our house has been for sale for almost a year now even though the realtor expected us to sell it within the first three months on the market (we just met with her yesterday and she showed us that there are many houses in this area that aren't selling for some reason and that our house is well priced compared to theirs...for some reason it's just been a slow market lately). Our relocation package with Steve's employer is up at the end of next month. There are also some other possibilities on the table that I can't share at the moment, but it's all very overwhelming. I'm halfheartedly cleaning out my craft room/spare bedroom so my sister can move in there (she's been living in the smaller bedroom which we intended for the baby) in case we are in this house when the baby comes (which seems likely no matter what right now), but I don't want to get it set up (which I'm so excited about doing) and then find out we're moving immediately. Currently I have a huge pile of baby stuff in the corner of my living room that doesn't have a place yet. It's hard because my nesting drive has started to kick in, but I feel like I can't fully give in to it yet. I guess I'm just tired of living in limbo. Basically, the Lord is teaching me (again) to stop trying to plan out my life and to trust him for tomorrow. Apparently I didn't learn it well enough in the nearly six years I prayed for a baby.